FOOD FOR THE SOUL

I realize I haven't updated this blog mumbo since Jan & WOW, umm... so much has happened; But I am not going to fill you in on where I've moved into, worked on, worked with, gonna be on this mumbo.. blah blah blah!!!
I remember just a few yrs ago I went to an Augustana show at the house of blues and just had a HUGE moment of inspiration while watching them realize they've 'made it' & I have had that kind of day again just a few yrs later.
It's not one of those days where I feel I've 'made it' (<-- what ever that's suppose to mean..) It was not just a moment of inspiration; it was a WHOLE day, from the moment I woke up, I just had such joy for other peoples accomplishments and future endeavors for people around me, and then myself. Or, as a good family friend, Deb, would say, 'there were streams all throughout my desert.'
I love knowing what my passion in life is. It is definitely just being creative and being inspired by others passionate ambitions. It doesn't matter if your ambition is to win a gold metal in the Olympics, or to work at the repair garage down the road that had your dream car in it while growing up. Seeing people accomplish what they've always projected for themselves just inspires me to the fullest it could. I like literally want to cry for them just thinking about it!!
Seeing Laura Ling and Euna Lee come home today to their families who literally had to prepare themselves for the possibility of them not coming home ever, especially after finding out that N.Korea launched 7 test missiles on the US's independence day (not a coincidence I don't think...) to them letting innocent American citizens free after meeting with a former president!?! Does that not give you renewed hope!? even for a minute!? that maybe, JUST maybe, this world isn't falling to pieces like everyone says it is. Or that possibly, those pieces could be picked up & put back together for just a minute.
Then, Great accomplishments through out the day personally, and with those around me, just made me smile and feel joy when I smiled.
Life hasn't been horrible by any means. But it has been tough. To say the least. I can say that in the last week, I have noticed I am laughing so hard, & so much! with tears! and have been feeling SO much joy1 Watching friends and family all accomplish things and get what they deserve. It's true that when the ones around you are good, you are better. For that, I am GREAT!!!
Even though, some things are missing/out of place, and hard to stomach; I am FINALLY, for the first time in about a year, becoming ME again. Even typing that makes me tear-up a bit because I have had friends say to me, 'You are not you!' countless times in the last year, and I know they are feeling the same way recently as I am.
I went to a show tonight for a fairly unknown band called 'the script'. Cut to 3 years ago: Wendy and I would go see a live show (known artist or not) @ least once a month in LA or San Diego. It's like I HAD to do that to stay sane and grounded. I had to go watch people succeed and be inspired and fulfilled. MAN I HAVE MISSED THAT! it is Food for my soul!
My first concert was a month after I turned 16 and I have been to literally hundreds since then. When I started driving my parents said I could finally go to a concert. As soon as I got that license; I went crazy & went to plays and concerts with every paycheck. I have seen people I can't even believe I've seen. From the Dixie Chicks to the original Puff daddy and the bad boy family! HA!(I got a good deal on tickets! & they were incredible!! LOL!!) I haven't been doing that like I should in the past year. What was I thinking!?! It is literally the Food to my soul! I need that!!! In the past week I have been to two shows and feel amazing!
As crazy as it sounds, I need to watch others be creative and passionate to feed mine. I am not sure if that's good or bad. But it is.
So that's my 2a rant after a truly amazing day that will lead to the next few and then beyond. So thankful to be coming back to ME!
………..Will shut-up & retire to pillow that is beckoning me because it is freshly washed (along with my sheets) & smells of fabric softener. ;-)
GOD BLESS!!!

KV

Long--drawnout--update..

A nice California Sunset I took a few weeks ago in the early AM.


Christmas Came and went. Am actually glad it's all over. It REALLY stinks not going home for the holidays. But, I luckily I had a great week after, 'cause Mallori came out for New Years!!! We had a great time!! I can't wait until she finally decides to just move here. (& she will.... she will....) It would/will be AMAZING having her around all the time. Not to mention, she was instant friends with my friends out here. They all loved eachother! Yeah, I pretty much know how to pick 'em! lol.
There is ALOT going on in the 'work' front. It's all kinda mind boggling.
Here's an idea of how I feel...



THIS is a pretty good facial display of how jumbled my mind is at the moment.
(this is a pic I snapped to send via phone to my mom or mallori or something in one of our pic message conversations, that we often have to show our emotions with text..LOL)

SOOO anyway.... I am not working as a phlebotomist @ United WestLab anymore. For which, is a relief. I am doing the on-call thing at Tarzana Medical Center instead because, Thankfully all this film mumbo has been keeping me SUPER busy. I am getting in on the prodution side more. Producing/writing..etc. I have two scripts that are THIS close to being done. One is a pilot that is actually not-too-shabby and might have some interest with a great production company,to shoot a presentation. And the other, it's more than a tad bit personal. So, It'll be a while until I finish that one. But those few that have peeked at it, have given good-fair-feedback and I'm pretty happy with it.
On the acting front: I am doing 'Curb Your Enthusiasm' next week. Which I'm pretty pumped for. It's an episode with Christian Slater. Maybe I'll have some pics to put up after. I also booked a supporting role in a Universal Feature I'm not 'at liberty' to discuss. It's not a huge dramatic 'top secret'movie,or even on that will for sure see a theatrical release, but you know how that goes. My role is pretty funny though. It's a comedy and I play 'Linda'. It's a pretty meaty role. SO meaty infact, that I have the last line in themovie in the funniest scene. So I'm pretty excited for that. We start that @ the end of Feb.
I've been out reading alot for different things. So I can't really complain. Although one would like to be working a bit more.
That's about it for now. I'm sure I won't be updating until I think about it again.. maybe a month'ish.
I hope 2009 is going well for everyone. I miss home terribly and have NO clue when I'll make it back. Mom is coming out while I'm shooting in Feb. which I can't wait for. I need some 'thawing', & who better from, than mom?
okay...
Ta For Now,
KV

PS: It was a year ago this week that I had my 'Steven Spielberg' encouter. What a memory!!!!

My Current Favorites:
Music: New Death Cab Album. Especially song 8

Movie: Rachel Getting Married, Slumdog Millionaire and Revolutionary Road all take the cake.
For different reasons. 'Rachel'--> was just INCREDIBLE. You will experience EVERY emotion possible in that one.
'SLUMDOG'-> Well, anyone that's seen this just knows. I can't think of a better story told in a better way. It will win all the awards this year and should. &
'REVOLUTIONARY ROAD'--> Wow, talk about heavy. I think Leo was robbed (as he usually is). He does an amazing job in this. It's not a movie you go to, to 'feel good'. that's my only warning. But it's disturbing and I left disturbed. So.. Mission accomplished. BUT, Michael Shannon was nominated for an oscar in supporting category and I think that it's well deserved.

TV Show: as always... CHUCK. <-- best written show on TV
followed, a close second by--> 'United States of Tara', 'Big Love' & 'Dexter'

Book: Any Jodi Pincout. She sucks you in.

Ok. that's about it. for sure this time..