Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Beating All Odds Current mood: frustrated DISCLAIMER: I'm not really in the writing mood.. just wanted to jot things down. So this is very scattered and I'm sure 'grammerically incorrect' in every aspect. But, Like I said.. just Jottin' Down people. I've been in this house for a year. The first year of my adventure here in LA. WOW so much has happened. Fires, stabbing, Being Held Up, flushing of keys, Agents, Manager, Auditions, Filming my first feature film, New Friends, Jobs.. I would've never anticipated that this last year would be so fulfilling. I remember writing a "blog" RIGHT before the new year and saying, "2006 <-- I like the sound of that. I think It's going to be my year!" Huh. . That statement couldn't have been more true. Granted the first 3 months contained some extrememly shisty people; But I got through it. So now it's off to the next place. The next "hole" of LA. the next Year. Where is it going to be!? HA.. I have no idea. But I'm done worrying about it. I'm just going to enjoy the ride! ************************************************ I have come to the realization that my life is strictly about beating the odds. Okay blah blah blah I know. . Everyone beats the odds and yaddy yaddy.. but honestly For some odd reason I have this THING planted into my brain that is constantly telling me, "Take the hardest route Katherine. Why would you consider something easy!?" I have been beating the odds since I was a fetus. Seriously. I was the first girl to be born into my dad's family in 50 years. No one believed my parents when they announced it was a girl. My grandpa who was out on his commercial fisherman's boat in Alaska recieved a Telegram and my Grandma said that he looked at it and said, "hmmm who had a baby!?" Because he read "It's A Girl!!!" and had no clue who it'd be. After my two brothers were born my mom and dad didn't even get an ultrasound and find out my gender because they assumed and were just convinced that I was a boy. well.. HAHA.. I'm not! and I think that since I got all the Female genes for the Vander Linden family I was also given all the dreams and aspirations that every possibly female would've had. So now I'm here. In 'Tinseltown' Trying to beat the million other people out here for the same thing. Why for some reason am I convinced, even in this extrodinary time of trial, in finding a place to live and holding 3 jobs, do I even slightly think I can do it!? You can't even imagine how appealing moving home and being with friends and family sounds right now. but working in the hospital and living a life of 40 hour weeks and small towns is not even slightly what I want right now.. if ever. So. . . In conclusion, thank you peeps at home telling me I'd be miserable. Cause I would. Not because of you. . cuase having you guys around would be so fullfilling. But because I am / have built a life out here. I'm auditioning. I'm constantly on sets, I'm meeting people, I'm Living. . and I'm not unhappy. But will I ever NOT be lonesome for all you guys back home!? I am moving on.